the way i know that everyone is disapointed in me. I was supposed to do good but i didn. I failed and i am failing. idkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidkidk it doesnt mtter i can still lock in I can STILL lock in itsok it is a okay!!! im a good girl and a good student too i have to keep myself safe in these tryingtimes. I CAN TILL LOCK IN AND ********************** AND EVERYTHING IS A OKAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im not made for college again. I think this feeling comes in cycles and next week im gonna be a professional assignment doer again. but for now i suffer and wish i moved to washington and worked at the coffee shop blah blah whatever. I want to do important work in my life but i also dont want to suffer to get there. Is this really something i want to do?
i realized that i am not supposed to care. i just fucking do it. i just do it and dont care. it works and ive almost got all my math done.
i hate school wow this shit fucking sucks.!!! I cant beleive i have to do these bullshit highschool classes that IDGAF about! I am in math 120E and ENG 101 and this is so awful. I hav3 to be writing a rethorical analisiss or whatever the fuck and i dont know OR CARE no its not that i dont know its that i geinually do not give a fuck. I need someone to tie me down to do this stuff seriously it is nearly impossible for me to sit down and do work for either of these classes. My english professor is the worst too. She doesnt teach us anything she just yaps and then has us read a book. oh my god the readings. the the the the the the the redings are so shit. WHATEVER!! Im gonna take it from the top. I have some classes. I hate all of these classes. My first class is FYE. FYE is some bull that i have to do from my LLC i so stupidly decided to join. It is a identity class and yeah the stuff we do is important,, the workload is bullshit,, the projects arent interesting,, and worst of all i am BORED OF IT!! But its not actually my worst class,, it gets a B. Next is ENGLISH! FUCK ENGLISH! English 101 has a terrible workload,, i dont even do most 0f the assignm3nts and a lot of the time its just fruit ninja class rather than english. I feel like I am stuck with the people i talk to (uh podcast) in that one because they are all on my dick constantly. I have an essay due like, y3st3rday and im gonna work on it tonight but wow its gonna suck. Id actually rather cvt a chunk of skin out of my arm than do any of the work i have missing. Next is math. HOLY FUCK math sucks. I never liked math and this math class is no different. I dont understand any of the shit we are doing. I failed my firsttest (58/100) and i dont even think ill end up passing this shit. I have to drop it by the 30th so pray i remember to check in and see if it is not gonna get passed. Anyway onto social work 101. SW101 is the class i care the most about the content. But right now we are working on a project and FUCK I FORGOT TO EMAIL HIM BRB - okay i emaled it. Next is gonna have to be music apprecieation. FUCKKK THAT CLASS> i dont even wanna talk about it its so shit. Its not worth the time. Okay thats it i think. JUST KIDDING PSYCH 101 this class is fine i just forgot to do my test last week cuz i got high and ruined myself so yeah. im at work and its good i wish all i had was work. I hate having school i want to be done i want to be done so bad.